headaches

i've been getting a lot of headaches lately... maybe it's a brain tumor... or more probable.. i haven't been sleeping and eating properly.

i picked up an overtime nightshift last night on four hours sleep, and managed to get about 3 hours sleep today...

i'll be in bed early tonight though, i'm working 7am to 7pm all weekend starting tomorrow.

other than working and visiting ross, i've been spending a lot of downtime by myself. i have made a new friend (i sound like i'm in grade school) from work. she's cool and gets my warped sense of humor. it's nice to have another friend in town.. most of my friends are out of town..

and speaking of which, i can't wait until monday when i get to go and see jess and the kids, and then to kitchener to see laura and her brood.

wish i had more time to visit them, but with being full time and having a boyfriend who lives in the opposite direction it makes it hard. at least we keep in regular touch with each other.

it was really hard as a kid moving every year and having to start over and not having a true friend you've known for a long time and who "gets you". i'm really proud to say that despite distance, jess and i have been friends for over 10 years and laura for over 8... that's an accomplishment for me.

now that i'm old and wise i know the true value of a friend and just try to be the best i can. i may not be spiritual or in touch with a lot of shit, but i do believe in karma...

not sure if this post has any real purpose or even makes sense, but i can always blame it on lack of sleep.